Last month, mom forced me to go to sewing class, and therefore I went there halfheartedly. I can't believe it that one month has passed and now I'm in the middle of finishing my third creation, which is called the "baju kurung pesak gantung". It's so stressing doing something that you don't like, as I prefer cooking and home-deco than sewing, but I think the credit goes to X5. the frown we had every time we have to drive to the class changed into smiles and laughter as we will imagine ourselves designing and sewing shirts for the boys. Indeed, it works ALL the time. It sounds weird but personally, I enjoyed it here a bit, unlike my first day here. Despite all the super loud ahjummas, I find it cool when a piece of 4-meter cloth can turn into something wearable in a few days (for a beginner like me tho). My sister and I have made a mission to design and sew something and send it to X5 because they are our biggest inspirations.

Ramadhan is coming soon and I hope I can handle the challenges, especially in dealing my temper. I found myself being so weak these days as I can easily fall into tears or make faces every time something went wrong. Like today, I am pretty upset and I feel like to go upstairs and do my own thing in my room, but to think that it's not often that our family is gathered together like this, I just put aside my anger and I even eat! da heck that you told me to diet but the fact that you didn't eat the food that I bought and it's not even my fault that the waiter took the wrong order and I didn't re-order thinking that it's already late for us to wait for a new batch and you just say that you don't feel like eating when I already prepare the food on the table for you and this is not the first time you're doing it and I don't want to be a disobedient daughter and I even feel bad for wasting the food and aish now the tears are falling again and again, it is hard for me to start dieting and you didn't even help either but keep telling me to diet while asking me to cook and then not eating them and in the end I have to finish them because I don't want to waste the food and yeah I won't buy anything for you again after this and let daddy do it because you will still eat it even if daddy got the wrong order and now I think it make sense when that uncle said that I have something that I wanted but I didn't tell it and I think I have A LOT but I have to keep it inside because I believe that my other three siblings deserves the attention better than me and I should stop now and stop crying or else my eyes will get swollen tomorrow again, we are sorry that we are not perfect and don't know how to keep the house as good as you and we are not studying oversea and we seldom help you with the housework like you told the stranger who came to our house for the first time and I think that you are now acting like your friends whom you always said that you don't want to be like them but indeed you are now slowly being them

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